DISCONNECTED... :)

Well... This New Year I'm definitely trying something 'new'. Disconnecting myself from the rest of the world. Rest of the world basically means my friends ('cause I'm definitely not going to my relatives, or for a trip with my family)... Asmita, Shikha, Navani, Solanki, Monalisa, Shubha, Ipsita, Annu, Sharmistha, Utsav, Avinash, Asha, Divya, Kaushik etc etc etc... (don't get mad at me now if I've not mentioned your name here! T_T I suffer from weak memory...) These people will not be able to reach me on my cell and I absolutely forbid any attempt to contact me on my landline for "New Year Wishes" (they will never forget the response they will get if they dare do that...hmph!). I need some time off from this freaky You-Have-To-Wish-Me-On-New-Year period of time. I don't complain about it usually... I like it (don't take it otherwise) I really do... keeping in touch with friends, wishing them, being happy, smiling and laughing with the people I love the most... but something has made me realize, I cause a lot of pain to these very people who love me and care about me... and I have done something for which I don't deserve to be forgiven. Till date I have never felt like this. If ever I had done something to hurt someone I have had some reason, either my short temper (which can't be helped), or my possesive attitude (which, I think, I inherited from my Sun Sign... again it can't be helped), or sometimes maybe I have been right in my own way... I always had the right to be forgiven, there was always the scope for the incident to be forgotten for good... But what happened this time, it is unforgivable. I don't even have the right to go and say sorry, I haven't, I simply can't. I just can't seem to come to terms with the fact that I have done something so terrible... I just stare into the darkness at night and ask myself, "How could I?" The only thing I can do is wait... Wait in the hope that everything will be alright again. So, guys and gals, till that time I am DISCONNECTED. As my status message in Orkut, Facebook and Hi5 reads--- "I Won't Be Available This New Year... No Calls, No SMS, No emails..." Bubbye till the 6th of January... and Happy New Year 2009. See ya! :)